Flight Delays and Life Realizations

I am writing this as I sit at the almost crowded airport waiting lounge. I am waiting for a flight that should have flown almost half an hour ago and is not expected to fly until three hours from now. This is supposedly the first day of an epic adventure but its started with an epic fail.

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As I sit here and look at the people around me, I can’t help but think how this is so much like life in general. No matter how much you plan and how much you prepare, there will be glitches and bumps along the way. You can sit back and accept it or you can choose to throw a tantrum and scream your heart out.

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At least I got this view.

But let’s face it. You can scream all you want but if that plane is not ready to take off, what can you do? Sometimes you just have to accept that some things are really beyond your control. Sometimes you have to accept that some things are not meant to take off yet. It’s just not the right time yet.

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That plane will fly when it’s ready. Just sit back and make the best out of it. Or get your money back.

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When All You Can Do Is Be Brave

I write this as I sit alone at the hospital waiting area not really knowing what to feel. I see people around me, going about their business or sleepily waiting as I am.

I’m thinking, are they as scared as I am? Are they here for someone? I wonder what they are thinking as they stare straight at the wall. I wonder if they realize that we are all comrades in this, silently waiting for whatever it is that we are waiting for.

I sit here trying to take my mind off the tests that I have to go through. Hoping that whatever it is that we are trying to rule out will be ruled out. I would welcome a diagnosis of “just your imagination” because that would sound so much better than being told that your life is going to change.

I don’t know if I should really be taking this seriously or not. If this is just one of those moments when your overactive imagination is leaping 10 steps ahead of you. I hope so. But I can’t help but think, what if it is not? What if it is something serious and I didn’t pay attention to it for a long time? Well, this is why I’m sitting here staring at all this people right?

I am optimistic about this mainly because of my doctor. He did explain to me that we are simply doing these tests to rule out other possible diseases and what I have is probably just hormone related. I am rooting for that one. The alternative is just unthinkable. I prefer to be told that I am just imagining this and this is nothing. I really hope it is nothing.

I am optimistic partly because I do not feel sick at all. Aside from the bruises that doesn’t even hurt and the weight loss that seemed to be normal for me, I feel great. I even plan to hike tomorrow. No dizziness. No fainting spells. I don’t feel pain in any part of my body. I feel good.

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And if it is not. Well, I guess I’ll have to cross the bridge when I get there.

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11 Things I Do My Best To Live By

Ever heard of the 11 General Orders?
It’s something like that.

1. I will protect my family at all cost. I will do my best to act in the best interest of my family. I will always keep in mind that my actions will affect not only me but also the those that I love.

2. I will strive to be the best version of myself. I will do my best to live life with integrity and to live a life with dignity. I will not let my arrogance blind me from seeing when I need to change so I can become a better person. I will always do my best in whatever endeavour no matter how small my part is.

3. I will do my best to be a positive influence to people. I will be a responsible role model to my younger cousins and to the world at large. I am not big enough to change the whole world, but I will do my best to make as much positive change as I can.

4. I will not let my fear get in the way of my dreams and my happiness.

5. I will work hard to achieve my dreams. I will not let myself rely on people to give me the things that I want and provide for my needs. I will not let myself become dependent on the assistance that people gives me. I will not let myself forget that nobody has any obligation to help me or provide for my needs; that if they do, it is because they want to and it is my responsibility to make sure I can stand on my own.

6. I will be happy but not at the expense of other people. I will always make sure that my happiness doesn’t hurt others. I will not be selfish and will be sensitive enough to know when I am already causing pain to others.

7. I will love the same way I was loved and the only way I know: unconditionally. I will love without buts or ifs. I will only give a love that is honest and whole for people’s hearts are not playthings that can be replaced when it breaks. Everyone deserves to be loved unconditionally and wholeheartedly and for as long as I live, this is the only kind of love I will strive to give.

8. I will not let myself forget that I am human and I am not superior to anyone. I will be confident with what I can do but I will not be arrogant to think that I am better than everyone else.

9. I will be open-minded especially in learning new things. It is not possible for one human to hold all the knowledge in the universe, therefore I must always acknowledge that I still have so much to learn. I will respect people’s beliefs, culture and  tradition. I will seek to understand people’s choices and lifestyle and respect them for it.

10. I will keep the promise I made to God that I will keep myself pure until He gives me that one person He reserved for me. My body is my responsibility and I will make sure I will live my life protecting that promise until it can be fulfilled.

11. I will cast my burden to God for He knows what is in my heart and what is best for me. I will not let despair drag me down. I will not let frustrations lead me astray. I will let God guide me and let His will be done.

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